Tonight I can write

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Pablo Neruda

translated by W.S. Merwin
recited by Andy Garcia from "Il Postino Original Soundtrack"

พระคุณครู

ใครคือครูครูคือใครในวันนี้
ใช่อยู่ที่ปริญญามหาศาล
ใช่อยู่ที่เรียกว่าครูอาจารย์
ใช่อยู่นานสอนนานในโรงเรียน

ครูคือผู้ชี้นำทางความคิด
ให้รู้ถูกรู้ผิดคิดอ่านเขียน
ให้รู้ทุกข์รู้ยากรู้พากเพียร
ให้รู้เปลี่ยนแปลงสู้รู้สร้างงาน

ครูคือผู้ยกระดับวิญญาณมนุษย์
ให้สูงสุดกว่าสัตว์เดรัจฉาน
ครูคือผู้สั่งสมอุดมการณ์
ปณิธานเพื่อมวลชนใช่ตนเอง

ครูจึงเป็นนักสร้างผู้ใหญ่ยิ่ง
สร้างคนจริง สร้างคนกล้า สร้างคนเก่ง
สร้างคนให้เป็นตัวของตัวเอง
ขอมอบเพลงนี้มาบูชาครู

โดย เนาวรัตน์ พงษ์ไพบูลย์

ขอระลึกพระคุณครูเนื่องในวันครูแห่งชาติ
คุณครูโรงเรียนสวนบัว
คุณครูโรงเรียนสตรีวิทยา
Teachers at Roxbury High School
อาจารย์คณะนิเทศศาสตร์และคณะอื่นๆ จุฬาลงกรณ์มหาวิทยาลัย
Faculty at Kellogg School of Management
ปะป๊า หม่าม้า คุณครูสองคนแรกและผู้สนับสนุนทุกการศึกษา
เจ้นุช สอนท่องสูตรคูณตั้งแต่ก่อนเข้าอนุบาล
เฮียบอย เตือนสติตอนอ่านหนังสือเอนทรานซ์
ขอบคุณทุกคุณครูค่ะ

Love, life, and something in between

Khunnais,

Probably because it's new year. Probably because I just had a hair cut. Probably because yesterday I watched Hanamizuki. Probably because I went to see a fortune teller recently. Whatever the reason is.. I was thinking about this on my way home from work, and I wanted to capture it.

It's January 2011, which means I'm getting a year older. And I asked myself how I feel. And I told myself that I feel good, no scratch that, I feel great. And I'm single, super single actually. Super single means that you are single and you are not on the progress of not being one. So I wondered why. Aren't I supposed to be worried about my status in life, about finding the right one, about getting married, about settling down, about not wasting time being single? I wondered why I feel great despite all that.

And then I countered myself, why not? Why can't I feel great just because I'm not in a relationship, and on the way to marriage? I'm not saying that I don't want to be in one, and that I don't want love, or a boyfriend, or a husband. I just don't rush it, when I say "it", I mean "life". I'm just not worried when I happen to be in the idle phase in this segment of life. I just take life as it comes to me. Today, other segments seem to occupy more time for me. So be it. Love will come, and go, and come again, and will eventually stay (for a while at least), and will eventually go. There is no point anticipating, or worrying, or feeling guilty.

I was fighting back and forth with myself whether to write this. Because it might appear like I'm being defensive, or sour grape. Whatever it may appear. I wanted to write this so that one day when I'm lost in the waves of others' thoughts, when people are putting thoughts into my head that somehow my life is incomplete, wasted, and not fulfilled just because of the status I choose to be in, I can come back and read what I think & write today.

I also want to remind me when I re-read this. That I'm not anti love. I had loved. I'd lost it, and found it again. And that I love being in love, and I also love being alone. I still cherish love so much so that I will surely embrace it when it comes around. I'm therefore not anti marriage. I'm ready for both. When they are ready for me. But in the mean time, I'm not gonna waste time being unhappy.

Live high. Live mighty. Live righteously.

i carry your heart with me

To mama

i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart
i am never without it
anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me
is your doing,my darling

i fear no fate
for you are my fate,my sweet
i want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky
of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope
or mind can hide
and this is the wonder
that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart

E.E. Cummings

My favorite poem discovered by watching this beautiful movie called In Her Shoes. Here's the clip of that scene:
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